u.n.c.o.m.f.o.r.t.a.b.l.e.
happy monday.
So... sometimes ya feel uncomfortable, ya know? I have been thinking a lot about being uncomfortable. I'm in the process of figuring out how to balance, how to proceed, how to be me, how to prepare to be a mommy, how to forgive, how to not be bitter, how to love, how to be aware, how to trust, how to not schedule every minute of every day. just how to... and it's uncomfortable for me. I feel awkward.
I feel like a I have grown to big for my britches and I'm in between sizes and am trying to figure out what to do... you know the feeling! Just down right awkward! I'm happy and life it good... just awkward.
When I'm UNCOMFORTABLE... I think about when God forced me to move to Troy. He definitely forced me here. I HATED it. I wanted out. I had no friends. no family. no clue what I was doing. We lived in a single-wide trailer. My best friend were 6 HOURS AWAY and Jacob's best friend lived next door! I was in a new city, job, church, place, last name, EVERYTHING. I was so uncomfortable! It was probably plastered all over my face how much I felt like an odd ball! I would cry because I hated being here and I felt alone. I definitely freaked Jacob out. I mean... I know I had Jacob... but I was a
Me in 2010... first year in Troy. cute huh? |
Me in 2013... still learning |
So... in my UNCOMFORTABLENESS (yep, made that up) now... what is He wanting me to learn? I think it's too much for me to see right now. I'm sure I'll look back and be able to see all the treasures... all the nuggets of gold... and cherish all the amazing times in our green, white cabinet, hardwood kitchen. The time in the trailer with Jesus FOREVER CHANGED ME... it really did. An hour is still not enough time to spend with Him and I am still in love with Him.
I'm sure this growth spurt will level off one day and I'll be, once again, forever changed by all that's He is teaching me.
Labels: adoption, jesus, learning, uncomfortable
1 Comments:
LOVE your heart! LOVE LOVE LOVE! see you in APRIL!! bah!! :)
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